As I do with many of my new favorite people I find on YouTube, I discovered our newest rising star, Panicked Antics under my “Recommended” page. What caught my eye was that she seemed to have an ongoing series called “Slay & Shade” in which she would talk about certain people on YouTube. I had to check this girl out!
Turns out, I was right to. The normal theme of her videos is that she’ll put on her makeup (sort of like a “Get Ready with Me”) and will talk about a particular YouTuber. I love makeup and I love gossip, so I was hooked right away!
While Panicked Antics and I don’t like/dislike all the same people on YouTube, that’s OK. There are plenty of people that I’m a fan of, who I’ve featured on my blog that I’ve haven’t 100% agreed with. The point was that I felt a connection with her.
I asked her if she wanted to do an interview and she was quite lovely when we talked about the idea. As the date approached, I was looking more and more forward to it. I was very impressed with the person I was talking to through email (even more than I had been through YouTube)!
Right off the bat, she was as sweet as she could be! I loved how her dog joined her on the couch while we talked on Skype! She told me that she and her husband adopted him from a shelter. That’s beautiful. My husband and I did that with our son/dog, too. We talked some about her husband. They have been married nine years. They first met at a birthday party when she was still with her ex-boyfriend (now best friend). She admitted there was an instant attraction between her and her future husband, but she was unavailable at that time. Later, when she was single, her ex that he suggested they go see a local metal band with some friends; one her future husband happened to be in. After the show, the two exchanged numbers and they’ve been together ever since!
I asked her how she became vegan. (She talks about that some on her Channel.) She told me that her brother gave her a book about veganism when she was a teen and she was horrified about what was happening to animals, and it changed her. I told her that I admired her lifestyle. She admitted that she feels like some vegans are too militant. I told her that I feel that some Christians (I’m one, by the way) are too militant as well.
We went on to talk about the hypocrisies within both the Atheist and Christian communities. I told her that I feel like certain Christians are too homophobic and that people within the LGBTQIA Community do go to Heaven. In fact, I have family members that are gay and are Christians. She said that I’m her “kind of Christian!” (Love her!)
I asked her what made her come up with “Slay & Shade”. She said that “Slay” could be her doing her makeup and “Shade” could her be her talking about YouTubers. (That’s why we love her Channel!)
On to the subject of makeup and what she likes. She told me that she likes cruelty-free. When it comes to her skincare routine she likes cleansing oil, and at times she likes to use Micellar Water. She’s used Pacifica, but is turning away from that and is looking for some more general face washes.
We talked about the lack of shade ranges out there and that she really got me thinking about what she’s said about Tarte and Wet n’ Wild. She also mentioned Sunday Riley and Pacifica don’t have wide shade ranges and neither does Lancome’. Again, she really got me thinking. So, thank you for that. (Seriously, thank you. We need to demand more shade ranges. I sincerely thank you for getting me out of my comfort zone.)
I noticed she was wearing a Shane Dawson shirt. Turns out, we’re both huge Shane Dawson and Ryland Adams fans! We love them as a couple and it was such a delight seeing her wear Shane’s cute hoodie! (I adore Shane, but I’m a pretty big Ryland fangirl, I must confess!)
I asked her what her most popular videos have been. She said it would either have to be John Kuckian (watch it here) or Lucia Tepper. I told her that her Lucia Tepper one was great. (It really was! Have a look here.) I told her how much I enjoyed her one on SSSniperwolf, as well. We agreed that she’s beautiful and a good gamer. We also agreed that instead of bullying other female gamers, she could bring them together, but it might be too late for that. We also suspect that her boyfriend might be a bad influence on her. (It’s really heartbreaking because she’s clearly too talented, and as we said, too beautiful to be behaving that way and to tolerate having a boyfriend that puts down other women and shames them.) I then told her about how my husband is a big gamer and how I’m more of a casual one, but we welcome female gamers in the community, so it’s heartbreaking to see SSSniperwolf act the way she does. She agreed.
We talked about a few things we sort of disagreed on. I’m a big Here for the Tea fan, while she sort of is. (She did a Slay & Shade on her, too. No, I wasn’t offended. We can agree to disagree.) We talked about the Drama Channel “Fighting” that was going on during that time and I told her what I saw from “my” end. I was impressed to see how open she was to hear what I had to say.
At the same time, she told me how Petty Paige sang a song for her and her husband’s anniversary. I have to admit, that’s pretty sweet! I told her that although I’m not a fan (at least, not anymore), I’ll recommend certain videos of hers if I feel like the occasion calls for it. (For instance, someone didn’t know who a certain controversial YouTuber was, so I told them that even though I’m not a Petty Paige fan, that she did a great video on that person.) When I told Panicked Antics that, I loved how well she took to that and said that she liked my approach!
Note: Since this interview, more “drama has gone down between her and Here for the Tea and she has now been blocked by HFTT. Although I’m a fan of HFTT’s, I respectfully disagree with her decision.
On another note, HFTT & Petty Paige have since made amends. Since then, HFTT has taken a break from YouTube for personal reasons. On that note, I am praying for her and wishing her the best. Now, back to the interview!
I asked if she ever heard back from anyone she spotlit in her videos. The first was her Peter Monn video. What happened was Peter Direct Messaged her on Twitter and said that she not only gave him a lot to think about but she also inspired him to start doing his rant style videos while he’s driving again! Talk about class!
The next was her “Rants in PJ’s Rants” video that she sometimes does instead of “Slay & Shade.” This time it was about the beauty guru Thomas Halbert. Those of us who know who he knows that he’s talented, but will also block people in a minute, so I was pleasantly surprised to hear that he took what she said to heart and applied some of her advice to his videos. She messaged him not too long afterward and asked him if he was angry about the video and he thought the video was very constructive.
Note: Thomas now has us both blocked due to his giveaway scandal. To see the video that started it all. click here. To see my interview with GadgetBeast30, click here. To see Panicked Antics’ video on the subject, click here.
I was surprised to hear when she said that the one video she regrets was her Thrift Thick one. I asked why that was because I liked it. Although she stands by what she says, she said that Thrift Thick (Cassie) “looks like she smells like cat piss.” Panicked Antics admitted that it was a comment she originally read about Cassie that was quoting, but she felt horrible about it. Afterward, she tried to reach out to her and say that the “cat piss” comment was something she regretted/regrets. Cassie has her blocked, but she was able to find a way to reach out to her. Sadly, she never heard back. So, Cassie, if you’re out there, the woman I talked to is no bully and I can tell you in with 100% confidence that she’s sorry and feels horrible about that comment.
I asked her about who she likes to watch and she mentioned people such as iNabber. I also found out like me, she’s a fan of true crime TV shows and the I.D. Channel. I asked her if she had heard about the woman who survived Ted Bundy. Her eyes opened wide and she said, “NO!” I told her as soon as she gets a P.O. Box, I’ll send her the book. (I’m keeping that promise, by the way!)
I told her that I have empathy for those that have addictions because addiction (mainly alcoholism) runs in my family, so I gently asked her about both her drinking (which she’s openly talked about) and how she’s been since her grandmother died. She took care of her grandmother in hospice care in her and her husband’s home for the last six years of her grandmother’s life, so they knew the end was near. But it was still very hard on her. She admitted that maybe she didn’t fully prepare (to be fair to Panicked Antics, there’s no way to fully prepare), but her death was truly hard on her and quite depressing.
I got to hear a lot of sweet stories about their closeness, and how when she was growing up she and her grandmother would go on a “hunt” to see who could find the lowest priced cosmetic in a certain store. She also told me that she knows that if her grandmother were to find out that she (Panicked Antics) was so depressed over her death, she wouldn’t be happy about that or want it whatsoever.
This brings me to her drinking. I learned that like me, alcoholism runs in her family. Not only were her grandparents on her Dad’s side alcoholics, but so was her Dad. She told me that as a kid, she would find empty beer cans. Her Father would come home drunk. Her parents would fight over it, and all this turned her brother and sister away from drinking. She said that one would think it would do the same for her, but it didn’t. She went on to tell me that, while she doesn’t drink daily when she does drink she’ll “crush a six-pack.” Her husband asked how he could help and if he should give her the sort of tough love approach. Fortunately, they’re learning what does and doesn’t work and she’s getting it under control. She’s also learning that she can never go back to being a casual drinker. I’m very proud of her and am rooting for her. I believe in her and I know that she will be successful in her journey to sobriety, and anything she puts her mind to because she’s just that driven and smart! (I’m not kissing butt, I mean what I say when I say it!)
I asked her about the future of her Channel and she talked about her plans to edit more and do content with her husband (such as him reacting to beauty guru’s). Sounds amazing! As far as her personal life goes, she wants to keep working in hospice, and she and her husband want to move into a bigger house.
I want to encourage you all to not only tune into her Channel (here’s the link, once again), but to subscribe and follow her on Twitter. (She told me that she doesn’t really keep up with her subscribers, but knows that she’s almost at 1,000! I have a feeling she’ll be going way beyond that!)
Since this video, she has surpassed that! Congratulations!
Panicked Antics, it was such a pleasure talking to you. I found you to be quite enjoyable and you were such a doll! You truly are beautiful on the inside and out! Remeber, you can do anything you put your mind to, just never stop being you because you’re perfect as you are.
Oh, before I go. If she ever comes out with merch, her first shirt should say, “No, No, No!” I think it’s adorable when she does that! (Like in her awesome Lucia Tepper video)!
I wanted to add something. Recently, Panicked Antics came under fire for her response to a MannyMUA video about the death of his dog. Sadly, a lot of people misunderstood where she was coming from and called her names like “sociopath” and “bipolar.” As someone who has Bipolar, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and OCD, these responses bother me. I can honestly say that I consider Panicked Antics to be a friend of mine and on top of that, I also consider myself an activist for many causes, including mental health. So, when people say this kind of stuff to her, it hurts me deeply.
If you have a problem with the way she is dealing with mental health, why not open a discussion with her instead of calling her names? It may not always feel good to do the right thing when you feel so strongly about something in the heat of the moment, but you end up making yourself look bad by saying mean and hurtful things that you can’t take back. On top of that, you’re being hypocritical.
She has now set the video to private and made a followup video. Please give it a watch and keep an open heart this time. Thank you.